Sunday, January 13, 2008

The Roller Coaster Called Life

My busy life has returned. That partially explains the lack of new entries on the blog, but I'll also blame it on lack of inspiration. I've been feeling a little funky lately. I have no real reason to feel down because everything is going great. My leg has healed. I got a promotion at work. I'm married to the best woman in the world. So what's the problem?

Since my spinal cord injury, spring has always been a difficult season. Nice weather arrives only for me to once again come to the realization that I can't do the outdoor activities that I enjoyed pre-injury. I have my short pity party and move on. It doesn't last long, but it comes every spring.

I've had those same feelings and I think I know why. I've been battling this burn for so long and now it's finally healed, but that same realization that I'm still disabled kicks in. I don't know if I expected to make headline news and fireworks to go off once I was healed or what. It's difficult to explain.

I hope this post doesn't sound like I'm ungrateful or have sunken into some deep, dark depression. I'm just pouring out what's in my heart and believe it will help shake off the funk. Life is full of ups and downs, physically and emotionally. As long as God continues riding with me, I'm cool.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Congrats on the promotion!! That is a great way to start off the new year! Keep pressing on Matt. Carly remembers to pray for you every night for your complete healing so you can run and walk again. It is a great reminder to me that we should keep on asking God.

Anonymous said...

I have not known you for very long but this is not the up-beat guy I work with. The one who always teases and cracks jokes. I hope you feel better about things real soon! I know things will get better! Keep Faith!